This year has been a huge roller coaster ride with my youngest daughters health. She has had various unrelated health problems this year including having to undergo surgery. She has pulled through every obstacle that has been thrown her way since birth. She is one of the strongest kids I know. Going to regular doctors visit with Chrisiana aren't normal for me anymore because I dread going. I'm so scared her doctor will come back diagnosing her with something new. They are just as difficult for her as they are me. When its time for her to go see the doctor she will hide and become very serious. She wont go if she doesn't have her comfort toy or blanket. Seeing my daughter have high anxiety in going to her routine visits is just heartbreaking as a mother. My older daughter saw a St. Jude commercial one day and told me. "Mommy that's where Chrisi needs to go so they can make her better and her hair can grow." Of course I just lost it and sobbed. I didn't know she was being affected by everything. Kids understand much more than we think.
I'm so thankful that God has allowed her to be in our lives for 4 wonderful years. When I first heard the song in the video, I cried. I was in my car & I just cried & cried. It's such a touching song. It doesn't matter what my daughter has gone through or will go through, SHE IS STILL HERE WITH US. Ive learned that everyday I have my girls with me is a blessing because at any moment God can decide to take them home with him. This Christmas give thanks to the healthy children in your life and pray for the ones that aren't.
